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Saturday, November 28, 2009

i really think that sitting alone, working alone, offed my phone; nnot really offed but just trying to ignore.., running thoughts through my head, looking at blogs made me really think alot!!

so much so that i could even write a 1k long entry..

i wanted to write sooo much i wanted to talk soo much till the point someone's gonna read it, someone gonna understands it and even understand what i meant.. i really want to cry want to die and really just to restart my life, but i know it's immposible because life still goes on, unless i got crushed by a truck outside my office rite now... dun understand what i want what i need and what i should do... is frens my everything? or just me myself is everything...

no one online, no one to talk too.. even the one i really hope that he could just sms me and sae hey how's ur work.. is also not smsing... gosh.. Y ISIT SO EMO TODAY?!

irene not online, sy not online, moni not online, SY not back from aussie yet, sz nth much to talk , cam is emo too, xh;feels weird to suddenly sms her cus ending product is still no topic to talk, and i got no other fking frens already!! ah have.. regina should be with bf as usual, madelyn my cousin ain't close with me, jerrold and justin should be gaming and onli look for me when they need companion, how much more pethetic can i get?!

omgosh man... like a faliure in everything.. tried so hard for love; failed cus i'm fat, tried so hard with frens; failed cus i'm useless, tried so hard just to even talk with family; failed cus i'm fat and useless and dunno how to help..

i'm so like a faliure in every single thing.. no money, no house, no car, no license, no fren, no love, no figure, no good collegue, no shoe, no clothing, no nice phone, no internet, no food, no water, no family..

AH!! I HAVE NTH LA!!! FUCK!!

dun even understand y am i so emo and worked up... ask also pointless la.. cus i fking dunno either...

can u just keep bothering me instead of throwing me aside?! I AM BLUFFING U THAT I AM GOOD LA!!! T_T

someone pls!!!! just bother me!!! T_T

Your smile makes everything seem perfect to me.