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Saturday, November 28, 2009

i really think i'm so dead...

i think i really like the feeling of talking to him even though in alot of ways he's like an idiot gay ass jerk..

i think i'm getting more absent minded; NEARLY lost my office card which gonna cost 50 buckS!!

i think that i am starting to miss the time when i had with that army guy even though we didn work out at all..

i think i really need to get out of my own life to live at some where, where no one could recognise me so i can restart my whole life again and not be a pile of mud.

i also think that i can be hard working to work almost every day, everyweek.. even though i dunno where my motivation comes from...

and i think i am starting to letting go alot of my stuffs to frens(sy) again and i got a bad feeling abt it... cus everytime i try to be real to them what i get back is onli....... gas...

i think i am able to go swimming everyday to slim my arm and legs and most prob my donut.. it's protruding now cus i'm such a fat fuck...

i think i am demoralising myself too... cus i'm fat, i'm too dumb to believe ppl, ppl hates me cus i'm fat and i am being labelled weird cus i'm fat...

and yes i'm fat..

Your smile makes everything seem perfect to me.