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Saturday, October 10, 2009

I DO NOT CRY! on occasions when my hamster died, when i fell down and had a really deep cut, when my grandpa died except for the last day..

i onli cry when relationship between friends, family and yes maybe bf, is actually broken..

it's the feeling of ur heart being thorn apart that actually hurts so deeply that for no reason tears just start dripping down ur cheeks, nose gets stuck, vision gets blurred and eventually face get swollen... it makes me always just wanna die at that instant... seriously... just either run or just die immediately..

and apparently again, no one knew wad had happen neither there's anyone i could talk to cus they won't get wad's wrong with me in the end and ended up talking to me abt them, their probs and their life..

am i that insignificant?! i always ask......
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lastly...

I just KNEW IT! that he likes some one that came into his life.. but i think i should not ask much.. cus that would make me more insignificant in him... at least now i can be his play mate.. even just for a moment, i felt happy...

am i always not liked by ppl?? esp infront of guys... just because i'm......... fat....

Your smile makes everything seem perfect to me.