crappy

2010-03-13T23:58:00.002+08:00

YA! U! YES U!! STOP THERE!!! ROAR!!

:X okay la didn mean to shout at u actually.. HEE!! :D

alrite u may go now.. cus i'm rubbish.. just needed to talk.. but no one to talk to..!! :(

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LALALA~~ i am destroying + torturing myself.. -__-

LALALA~~ i WAS a dumb ass to be someone so good... -___-

LALALA~~ i guess i am being very pussy! :x

LALALA~~ i guess i dun feel so good...

LALALA~~ am i turning mad?

LALALA~~ or..... i'm not myself actually?

LALALA~~ HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!

BYE!

2009-12-27T23:20:00.002+08:00

hey blog...

it's wrong i know... very wrong...
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bought ivan's b'dae present.. 30 bucks gone... my wallet maybe not there.. cus ivan said not found...

might not even have a replacement? hmm....

maybe i was just being stupid..

talked whole day with me... weird too... maybe he's just bored.. :(

WINNIE! think it straight... it's untouchable!

very untouchable.... hmmm....

2009-12-26T21:46:00.002+08:00

Birthday passed; HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ME! :)

Christmas passed: Merry Berry Lorry Christmas!! ^^

and onli now i start to update.. lols.. this year birthday quite not bad.. get to get out of hse, explore orchard's new shopping malls, got a berry pie from sy, dinner treat by sz, a bronze nail polish and choco spoon from sze yun and moni.. -.- a upcoming prezzie from irene soon.. ivan sae getting me a wallet :) and i got myself lols.. a nice tee, a nice bag, a nice jeans! ^^

even though i got mixed feelings for that day.. but at least end of the day, i'm tired, smiled alot and i made a pun.. lols.. spot cow [sport cow] hahaha!!! came that out with sports car.. didn know wad's wrong.. hahaha!!! just find it hilarious for me.. hahahaa!!!

Christmas!! rather happy.. even though spend whole day at home on the actual day but...

23/12: dinner with ivan and his fren yoga.. lols.. and yes no doubt it's ivan again and no doubt his fren's name is really that yoga that yoga.. hahaha!! charming guy! >.< talked alot with him instead of ivan! lols!!

24/12: subway with ivan.. yes ivan again.. half day of training that day! damn shoik! cus they sent the system for backup! hahaha!! damn shoik! :P but still can't movie early.. :(
cus shu yi last min decided to join! xD but onli able to make it at night! :X anyway we 3 caught the 9.50pm movie! ended damn late! good! xD i like.. :P
neglected ivan for a long moment.. :x not good.. felt bad.. but ivan said it's okay.. but he also said cus he got nth to talk in girls topic! >.< y like this?! can still talk de ma.. :X

NVM! lols.. at least during dinner we had topic~ :)

25/12: wanted to go out with ivan to get his stuffs.. but his dad called home and asked him to pack for the malacca trip! so outing canceled and change plan to game but! my dad!! ROAR!!
onli manage to play with him awhile at 10... -.- damn lame.... then after like a round or 2 need to sleep le.. :(

26/12 7.30am: he on his way to malacca.. msged me morning! and talked to me till now.. maybe cus he's just bored.. :(

but at least we talked......

27/12: WHICH IS TMR! MOVIE MARATHON WITH SHU YI!! xD
1) CHIPMUNKS
2) SHERLOCK HOLMES
xD

happy week! xD

2009-12-05T00:31:00.001+08:00

I THINK I SHOULD TAKE UP PHOTOGRAPHY!!!

AND I REALLY DO!!! >.<

IT'S MY THING I FIND!! AND I LOVE THEM!! BUT HOW TO DO IT WELL??

ANYONE BE MY MODEL?!

SOME ONE LEND ME UR DSLR FOR 1 MONTH!!! PLEASSSEEESEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-01T23:18:00.003+08:00

damn...

no more sms from him le.. 2 days already.. y is it that he's always making me get used to sms him then put me hanging there... argh...

and i'm like listening to 丁噹 - 可以不可以

quite sad.. :X

and i love : 丁噹 - 我愛他

:x

2009-11-30T20:21:00.003+08:00

SHE smsed..

still speechless.. didn know wad to reply and decided to ask who's her.. which obviously i know who was it...

fake deleted her number.. she ask wad happened and i smirked.. went even speechless..

she claimed i talked to her sis and didn know wad's going on between me and hj.. and well.. not for a common fren of me and hj; implying her, me and hj could still talk.. and i would not have lost a bro..

she claimed that she wans to know wad's going on and kinda not want to have our relationship soured.. but i believe that after this whole month or even more than a month already.. she 's just giving me excuses, putting on a show, and making use of me.. which i didn mind b4.. but for now.. i felt even worst then 2 years ago...

i tell myself.. it's okay.. since our grp of frens are rather not clashed and the onli common fren, hj, is also now gone.. maybe it's time for me to leave her world and not her leaving mine....

she's definitely gonna be fine.. and i guess in me i know it very very clear that she IS really gonna be very fine and i should now on not matter nor care any of their stuffs...

I'm cleared now.. :) and it's time to move on.. i still have a small grp of frens.. :) and i can still make new ones.. :) and i felt so much better.. life's better too.. :D even though i'm still quite rather alone.. :x

2009-11-29T13:12:00.002+08:00

OMFG!!!! i totally am speechless.... to have such a fking god sis.. treating hj as my fking fren...
omfg...

i really am am am total speechless...

i seriously dun understand wad had happened neither wad ever they are saying behind my back.. omfg i seriously got nth to sae.. treated her like a fren but yet this is wad i get... i break ppl's relationship? proof?

i do have my own logic or wad they sae nonsense advice.. but i do not fking hell make them listen to me rite?! i onli advise.. i still like who they are wad!!!

omfg.. i seriously didn know ppl has such heart.. such hearing.. such i dunno wd fk la...

maybe like wad my dad is rite.. should not even have met her up again 2 years ago.. should not have went out with them.. should not had told her my darkest secret even though my even darker ones i was not honest with her..

omfg.. damn big impact.. if i haven't even start talking to tiger i would still be hid in the dark.. omg omg omg.. dun even know is good or bad to know this.. wah..!!!

i still feel the 100 knife stabbing hard into me.. in all directions; up, down, left, right....

need time again... to recover... damn fking shocking.. omfg.. but leen(tiger) is really right... wah!! need to thank god(lao tian ye) cus he let me rested for nearly a month to connect back with sz sy that bunch of ppl, talked with ivan like never b4.. wah.. then let me know the truth.. hah!!!

THANKS LEEN!!! hearts u to bits already!!

omfg.. really need to open my eye and set up a barrier already... and really need to thank them in the end..

TO THE MOST GRATEFUL HJ AND SH:

i really need to thank u guys for letting me know the truth by my most hated way.. seriously.. u guys are the greatest.. teaching me lots of things..

i was once happy cus i was with u guys.. really happy.. knew abt social stuffs.. knew abt games.. knew abt songs.. knew abt life.. alot jui dui le la!! but now for the very last time..

really thanks for coming into my life once.. for hui; twice. really thanks alot and hopefully u guys can just treasure wad u guys have now and i think i'm leaving u guys for good.. maybe worst in ur opinion? i dunno also.. so yar..

last BIG THANK YOU and a HUG! :D

Thanks..

LOVE, WINNIE

2009-11-28T15:43:00.002+08:00

i really think that sitting alone, working alone, offed my phone; nnot really offed but just trying to ignore.., running thoughts through my head, looking at blogs made me really think alot!!

so much so that i could even write a 1k long entry..

i wanted to write sooo much i wanted to talk soo much till the point someone's gonna read it, someone gonna understands it and even understand what i meant.. i really want to cry want to die and really just to restart my life, but i know it's immposible because life still goes on, unless i got crushed by a truck outside my office rite now... dun understand what i want what i need and what i should do... is frens my everything? or just me myself is everything...

no one online, no one to talk too.. even the one i really hope that he could just sms me and sae hey how's ur work.. is also not smsing... gosh.. Y ISIT SO EMO TODAY?!

irene not online, sy not online, moni not online, SY not back from aussie yet, sz nth much to talk , cam is emo too, xh;feels weird to suddenly sms her cus ending product is still no topic to talk, and i got no other fking frens already!! ah have.. regina should be with bf as usual, madelyn my cousin ain't close with me, jerrold and justin should be gaming and onli look for me when they need companion, how much more pethetic can i get?!

omgosh man... like a faliure in everything.. tried so hard for love; failed cus i'm fat, tried so hard with frens; failed cus i'm useless, tried so hard just to even talk with family; failed cus i'm fat and useless and dunno how to help..

i'm so like a faliure in every single thing.. no money, no house, no car, no license, no fren, no love, no figure, no good collegue, no shoe, no clothing, no nice phone, no internet, no food, no water, no family..

AH!! I HAVE NTH LA!!! FUCK!!

dun even understand y am i so emo and worked up... ask also pointless la.. cus i fking dunno either...

can u just keep bothering me instead of throwing me aside?! I AM BLUFFING U THAT I AM GOOD LA!!! T_T

someone pls!!!! just bother me!!! T_T

2009-11-28T15:14:00.002+08:00

i really think i'm so dead...

i think i really like the feeling of talking to him even though in alot of ways he's like an idiot gay ass jerk..

i think i'm getting more absent minded; NEARLY lost my office card which gonna cost 50 buckS!!

i think that i am starting to miss the time when i had with that army guy even though we didn work out at all..

i think i really need to get out of my own life to live at some where, where no one could recognise me so i can restart my whole life again and not be a pile of mud.

i also think that i can be hard working to work almost every day, everyweek.. even though i dunno where my motivation comes from...

and i think i am starting to letting go alot of my stuffs to frens(sy) again and i got a bad feeling abt it... cus everytime i try to be real to them what i get back is onli....... gas...

i think i am able to go swimming everyday to slim my arm and legs and most prob my donut.. it's protruding now cus i'm such a fat fuck...

i think i am demoralising myself too... cus i'm fat, i'm too dumb to believe ppl, ppl hates me cus i'm fat and i am being labelled weird cus i'm fat...

and yes i'm fat..

2009-11-26T12:50:00.002+08:00

actually to tell u i love u needs so much courage but i do not really have them yet..

the habit is coming back.. and i dun really wan to fall into it again.. maybe he's just using me or smth.. but.. thats all i can sae...

am i willing to be that replacement?

2009-11-23T19:10:00.003+08:00

HAAAA~!! i dunno wad wrong with me now.. damn...

just yesterday i went sentosa with IVAN, Shu yi, sz and sz's sis and her frens.. was a very happy day!! talked alot! took alot of pics! ate nice food! but now.. i dunno if i regret bringing him along..

crap......

he now gets to know shu yi had her number, for no reason smsing her already.. though i know she may not like the way he approaches her now.. but for 1 reason i know they actually have alot of things in common which i dun think i have... ah crap crap crap... i'm feel like banging my head on the wall now and not think the part that he had starting to sms her, know her and had fun!!! some one knock me out~! GRRR!!! i dare not even tell to ivan abt my feelings cuss it's not the time yet. and i'm fat! ahhh!!! dunno la....

i really really really just no die now.. really...

2009-11-21T14:56:00.003+08:00

no more smses, no more calls, no more complains, no more mac at late night, no more "double dating".. and alot of no more ever since that last sms...

did not understand what had happened.. i do not think i did anything wrong.. but yea.. she just lost contact even though our last sms is:" winnie will u still mind(despise me) as fren" [something like that la.. lols.. my reply:" Nope i don't mind even though the way we treat frens very differently.."

thats all and no more contact... even hj also kinda blocked me.. :x wadever la!! tot i could have a kor to talk to and someone to ask some questions abt person.. zzz..

maybe my dad was right to not care abt frens that much.. i think i cared too much.. making my life a mess and failures are all i see.. oh well..

tmr should be a good day out.. :) with sz, shu yi, Ivan! to sentosa~ hopefully i could break the ice between everyone.. lols!! cus all are related to me but not with each other.. hahaha!!! let them expand network!! :)

realised onli worked 4 days this month! and it's so wrong of me! wwtf!! need to buck up next week.. make myself work at least 2 days!! wed, fri and sat and maybe SUN!! :X

need the money la.. dun blame alrite!! hardly u could see winnie so hardworking!! :D
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Sy coming back on the 3rd of dec!! going out on the 5th!! xD MISSED HER SOO MUCH!! hope dec i so not gonna spend too much.. if not gonna eat into my perth savings.. zzz.. -.-

need to get some of the clinique stuffs too soon!! $$ needed again.. damn.. and clinique cost a bomb! :X

oh well.. these are life.. :) and just to add on..

* jie ar.. dunno wad's going on.. and i got a feeling that i am being speaked abt at my back.. even though i dun mind cus anyway i'm hated.. but just to let u know somewhat ur sis might be rite not all.. but some.. and u are forgiven by me.. but pls dun take advantage cus i'm nice..

and HJ; pls come online?! i got alot of things to ask u!! [ but u won't ba cus u dunno my blog.. lols!!] *

2009-11-15T19:51:00.002+08:00

watched 2012..

it's a

SUPER DUPER UBER MARVELLOUS EXCELLENT FANTASTIC...

AIYA WADEVER THE WORD IS..

IT'S JUST NICE!! JUST LOVE HOLLYWOOD SCIENCE LA.. LOLS..

lols.. everything seems like a perfect route, a perfect escape, a perfect plan for us human to get ready with.. if ever such things do really exist.. maybe every one could be save! when the time comes.. :)

and if really like what others has said that such time will and does come.. isit really that those whom are rich; rich as in those really really REALLY rich, could survive.. will i survive too??

i really wan to survive through a nature disaster.. really.. if i were to meet one i think i will love mother earth even greater and love my lao tian ye too.. even though i'm now like so free thinker.. :X

not that it's not good la.. but ppl saes that if one has a believe, a religion they actually out perform people whom doesn't.. dun really know if it's true but wad i believe is that even though i may be a pile of mud now there's always a way out if decision i made was rite.. :|

2009-11-10T19:40:00.002+08:00

Just received irene's sms and just realise i've made alot ppl worried and didn update them..

Thanks irene.. :) although it's just an sms but i felt the warmth at least i do know that people do care abt me..

Thanks sz.. :) although u didn really help physically but mentally u did real great~! thanks for the encouragement..

Thanks cam.. :) lend me 30 bucks to survived that week..

Thanks Shu Yi.. :) to company me through my friday afternoon even though i'm dota-ing with my cousin and his frens since morning.. and company through my sat and sun till i went to work..

Thanks lovely, cute, crazy cousin.. :) to bring me a crazy fri!!

lastly..

Thanks Michelle *even though i dun really like u*..but u are the onli one that is willing to take me in just in case i was thrown out.. :|

These matter even though are small but made up BIG! :D i'm at least fine now.. no more scary feeling in my heart, no more locked up room and toilets..i am able to talk freely to my bro and dad but not my mum yet.. -_-

But in return.. i need to contribute to utility bills... WTF!! then wad abt my plan to fly!!!!

TMD~! need to make better plans already with extra work -_-||

*saved $100*

2009-11-07T23:15:00.003+08:00

RUBBISH RUBBISH RUBBISH...

i got a rubbish mum, a rubbish life and a rubbish me.

fking rubbish la... zzzz.. anyway, counting down to 1 day for getting kick out of house.. wish me good luck eh.. even my aunt i wrote a note shove it at her door also no reply... wadever fuck la.. sleep on streets the best la hor.. next time see me on streets throw vomits, rubbish and even shit one me okay!! i'll be damn happy cus i'm total useless..

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that bloody zai nan seriously damn petty like some rich lady.. zzz.. okay fine he IS rich but guy.. zzz.. fking not happy at home think still got mood for movie meh.. scared i dun treat u back ar.. zzz... give me a break la gay ass... sms u no reply too.. wtf! damn kns..
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i'm total broke until 11th nov.. and many thx to cam for that 30 bucks and michelle who is willing to let me stay at ur hse if anything later happens.. :)

and sadly to say.. i told myself not to cry because of mum but as i was saying on the part of being thrown out.. i cried.. NOT BECAUSE OF MY FKED UP MUM but cus i saw my dad and bro suffering... :(

ah! and thx ivan bro.. really thx.. though we quarrel like our 3 meals but i seriously can depend on u sia.. maybe cus u changed le ba.. :) and i know u going to have a stead soon.. show me who she okay!? xD

2009-11-03T22:00:00.001+08:00

damn FUCKED UP!!

with: 1) GOD SiS.. but over soon..
2) MUM!! FUCKED UP !
3) with myself!!

ROAR!!! i seriously dun understand y she can't just admit her wrong doing or to seriously confide in me.. i feel so cheated and USED!! knn... fking bitch.. just knew some stuffs from her little sis that she actually didn talk to her and didn even return her her eyeshadows that was bought for blogshop!! WTF! i seriously think she's hopeless... flirt with guys when she has a BF.. no wonder they always fking quarrel.. and seriously i think it will not benefit her in any way la.. having onli guys thats interested in her as frens... is all fking bullshit.. and make those really really into her/like her as god bro cus she has bf is also all FKING BULLSHIT!!!

sorry to sae that but seriously u are not making any distance with them zzz.. and keep telling me this is the onli way to maintain as frens and keeping a distance!! FK! when the way u speak is like a bloody bitch.. super cheap la u.. i despise u totally now.. and u MAKE ME PUKE!!!

and fking hell.. at home another matter.. BRO SHOUTS AT ME to keep the clothes.. and i hate him when he shouts at me.. knn.. threw a little temper at my bro and mum gets mad.. KNN.. wad have i done la.. FK! thew 2 ceramic cup into my room and fking made me sweep floor 2 times and i still think there's still fragments on the floor la!!! KNN... FKING ILL TEMPERED BITCH!! ARGH!! hate my mum now seriously.. adding this to the favoritism... zzzzzzz... ROAR!!!

i fking hate myself now!!!!! GAINED WEIGHT... MADE MUM ANGRY CUS I SHOUTED AT MY BRO?! AND IS FKING STAYING AT HOME FOR NTH?!

TMD LA!! WHERE"S ALL THE MOTIVATIONS!!!!
KNs!

2009-10-22T20:38:00.002+08:00

been awhile... things happened.. especially sad ones.. frustrating ones... ever wondered y my sis is going through all those crap.. it's because she's the one lying and i dun have the courage to confront her.. and i think it's better off not to burst the balloon.... so kinda taking all the truth to myself... hard to accept i think and so dun wanna talk to her anymore...

skipped school today.. meaning i had actually consecutive 2 days break already and tmr is a FRI!!! TIME PASSED SO FAST THAT I REALLY THINK I"M A CRAP AND USELESS FAT FCUK!

argh! things are affecting me too greatly.. seriously... zzzzz... don't understand what the fuck is happening to my mind and i'm growing fat again! FK! i can't wait anymore to go swim, dance, cycle and have my fking life with all my fun frens!

sadly to say, ALL my FUN FRENS ARE ALL NOT HERE!!! ARGH!

cam just also broken up with that 2 weeks bf.. zzz and she's so not gonna tell me details.. =.= i seriously think me and her... kinda not like frens nor sisters anymore! like hello!! why isit that i am the one trying to maintain our friendship?! can't u make the move? i'm tired making all those move! gosh!

sis dun heed advise and is playing a bitch.. bro another idiot fk that i think he's so gonna fail his fking ass easy exam... dad who dun get the point of finding the correct fault to throw his anger at! and mum so emotional till omg!!!!.. i think she can like throw and break every little thing she comes into!..

KNNCCB LJ!

i'm so gonna be a crude person that says all these hokkien language!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK!

2009-10-15T19:18:00.002+08:00

oh yea..

end of 2nd week of school.. and loads of thing i think might me lining up hahaha.. tmr a zara trip with shu yi.. sat not confirmed yet and sunday work day!! $$$ xD

okay.. anyway saved like i think got 10 or 20 bucks already haven bank in and going to save another 50 from my pay.. wanted more but i'm afraid not enough to spend during the coming month.. as in this month though.. :)

up coming pay gonna get alot i guess double or triple? TEE HEE!! xD

savings savings saving!! very soon i'll saved enough for a trip to perth!! counted that i might just need ard 2k? 1k for flight another 1 k just in case for shopping and unnecessary stuffs lols.. it'll be my 2nd time on an airplane then!! ^^v

SUPER EXCITED ABT IT.. told shu yi abt this plan she's excited too.. but not sure if she'll really join but anyway she also need a get away soon.. her work driving her crazy!! though she got a pay rise!! xD

CONGRATS!! ^^

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since now he's over another girl and he's not in a mood to talk.. i think i should just do wadever i need to do and not care anymore.. since he knows that i'm always there to talk.. ^^

RMB me okay!!! :x

2009-10-11T22:58:00.002+08:00

OH CRAP!

i can't believe i'm working at night at a before school day.. -_- i doubt i'll be able to wake up for school but yea.. shall get sis to give me morning call! :D

anyway.. got a crazy dream yesterday.. real crazy.. lols.. roughly rmbered that i went on a shopping spree with sis then kinda we dun wanna go home and ended up at some old or cheap airport the next moment and we actually like swipped her card and got like 2 air tix to IRENE place!! omg!! i was like so excited, in the dream, i called irene that i'm coming over now!! and she'll be waiting at the airport for us!

just then i rmbed that i do not have any spare clothes with me!! and i was kinda telling my sis that we should go home pack, hack care our parents take the clothes and leave!! but she actually suggested that we shall just stay at the air port and wait for the departure.. and as the time grew nearer i begged to go home to pack.. and weird enough.. 2 guys drove me home!!! didn get their faces nor name.. but someone i know definitely.. hmm.. anyway.. by teh time i reach home to pack i had onli like 20 mins to pack!! and omg i knew that i'm a slow turtle i told them shit! i think i gonna missed the flight!! and would waste $$.. another thing is also that.. weird enough my house that i stayed in changed..... LOLS!!

it's like my grandpa hse but much more modern and nice.. and weird enough too, my house is having a PARTY!!! omg!!!... coming up is even OMG!!!

as i was packing my movement kinda slowed... like turing in to like old grandma movement... O.o and kinda i look at the time!! I AM GOING TO MISS THE FLIGHT!! and ppl is waiting for me at the car!!!!! i wanted to call sis and said i dun wanna go or rather to say i was like pondering if i should step out of MY ROOM!!!!!!!! >.< and the whole dream turns like.. blury.. :( and can't rmb wad i had after that..

GOSH!!!!!! wad the hack was those!!!!!! >.<
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i missed his call today.. :(
smsed him and no reply! :'(

sobs..

2009-10-10T13:32:00.003+08:00

I DO NOT CRY! on occasions when my hamster died, when i fell down and had a really deep cut, when my grandpa died except for the last day..

i onli cry when relationship between friends, family and yes maybe bf, is actually broken..

it's the feeling of ur heart being thorn apart that actually hurts so deeply that for no reason tears just start dripping down ur cheeks, nose gets stuck, vision gets blurred and eventually face get swollen... it makes me always just wanna die at that instant... seriously... just either run or just die immediately..

and apparently again, no one knew wad had happen neither there's anyone i could talk to cus they won't get wad's wrong with me in the end and ended up talking to me abt them, their probs and their life..

am i that insignificant?! i always ask......
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lastly...

I just KNEW IT! that he likes some one that came into his life.. but i think i should not ask much.. cus that would make me more insignificant in him... at least now i can be his play mate.. even just for a moment, i felt happy...

am i always not liked by ppl?? esp infront of guys... just because i'm......... fat....

2009-10-02T21:48:00.002+08:00

damn... it's a week already since i talk to 'u know who'.. quite missed his voice.. :((

oh well.. anyway i'm not needed... =x

need to save money for aussie trip! and i really need to make it this time!! told irene like dunno how many years le!! >.< but didn manage to go.. haiz... so yes!! this time round i need to make the trip!! there fore need a savings plan!! xD

1) 1 mth pay = $216
transport fee = $50 + $30(mrt)
excess spending! = $56
saves: 80! >.<

2) get business in blogshop..
3) work extra at starhub!! zzz..

sian.. dunno enough ma!!!1 =x

SOME ONE TREAT ME TO MOVIE EH! =x

2009-09-21T20:02:00.004+08:00

Becoming to be in love with this song.. =)

it's call: "Stand By U" by DBSK

meaningful lyrics and kinda sad~
see the lyrics and u'll understand~

The day you left without the words of leaving
This roads scenery and scent seems as if it was changed
The promises we exchanged because I want to be your everything
It was never kept and changes into memories

That time when you were crying alone, if I ran straight to you
Would you still have been by my side?
If I could, I want to say it one more time, that I really like you
My hearts desire for you and my words cant reach you anymore

I wonder where and who you are with
What clothes you are wearing, and what you would be laughing about
Im here and still here
believing that both of you will meet again

I was thinking without change
Thinking only about you

When you bring me to my mind of your back side with your hair tied
I misunderstood that person over and over again, who looked back
Everytime my phone rang I prayed that it was your name
and lived liked that each day like a wretch

I said Id forget you but that was a lie, the truth was I simply didnt want to forget you
If behaving as if I didnt care was me, I dont need that anymore
A happiness that couldnt be felt when youre not here
No matter how I try I cant easily stop the tears flowing

I wonder where and who you are with
What clothes you are wearing, and what you would be laughing about
Im here and still here
believing that both of you will meet again

Thats why Im calling your name by myself
I dont think I can accept this mournful heart
But theres no ways anymore besides that way

You shined even when you were just here
But those times will never come back again
Even if there is a problem, even if I lose something
I never want to forget that I loved you

I wonder where and who you are with
What clothes you are wearing, and what you would be laughing about
Im here and still here
believing that both of you will meet again

I was thinking without change
Thinking only about you
I was thinking without change
Thinking only about you

2009-09-13T22:22:00.000+08:00

Stand By U - by, DBSK

JJ: Since that day you left without saying goodbye
The sights and smells of this town feel strange
YH: We made promises, I wanted to be everything to you
But they were not kept, they become memories

CM: When you cried alone, if I had flown straight to you
Would you still be beside me?
YC: If I could I’d say it again, I love you
Now the words of how I feel for you cannot touch you

JJ: Wondering where you are, and with who
What makes you laugh, what you are wearing
JS: I am here, still here
I believe that the two of us will meet again

YH: My feelings unchanged
YC: I'm just thinking of you

YH: I remember your back, your tied-up hair
Repeatedly mistaking someone else for you, until they look back
CM: Every time my phone rings, I expect it will be you
I suffer all day

JJ: I lied saying I would forget you, I only really want to remember
JS: Acting like I don't care, I don't need this anymore
I do not feel happy without you
Tears fall, although I try my best they will not stop immediately

YC: Wondering where you are, and with who
What makes you laugh, what you are wearing
JJ: I am here, still here
I believe that the two of us will meet again

YH: So now I'm so alone, calling your name
CM: I do not and can not accept this sadness
But I have no other choice

JJ: I seemed to see you shining here
But that time can never come back
JS: Whatever happens, whatever I lose
I never want to forget loving you

YC: Wondering where you are, and with who
What you dream of, why you smile
JJ: Right here, even now I’m still here
I believe that some day I can meet you

YH: My feelings unchanged
YC: I'm just thinking of you
JS: My feelings unchanged
JJ: I'm just thinking of you

2009-09-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

I did not ask for such stuffs to happen and when it really happened, it was just onli a moment of happiness, awkwardness, and even more disappointment.

pointless to maintain that when it was not from both sides.. so i should just let it go let it fly to a place where it should land but most probably not into a place where there is me. maybe i was just born to be hated.. that's life.. u never know wad's gonna happen next..

and this is the first time in my life that i kinda felt that staying happy is so tough and it'll onli hurt urself and maybe other ppl..

had smiled lesser felt more depression and could understand that actually from the start i am always alone..

2009-09-02T14:54:00.002+08:00

well.. i think i'm really getting more and more crazy more and more do not know how to express myself.. like kinda losing some stuffS? but not really know wad..

and yar.. heeding some advise to just stay still and quiet.. =)

also think i'm getting into some trouble? i THINK la.. =.= abt my work.. damn it man i so dun wanna have this black record.. =x

and and!! camelia has no replies to my email.. think she's given up on me ba.. so does that mean out 7 years of friendship is gone just like that?! omg!! i can't think any furthur!!! >.<

some one make me cry pls!! just cry once more so i could sleep at night~ =

2009-09-01T19:53:00.000+08:00

think this blogger got prob huh.. wtf!!

wadever i typed out in one breath cus i'm angry is like half post.. =,=

and i'm so not gonna repeat myself.. anyway this is really rubbish!! i just onli onli onli hope that we could just talk naturally?! i know no one gonna read it but it's bottling up!!! argh!! and winnie can't hold it in with no one to talk to!!! >.<

i'm also starting to miss sy!!! she's so convinient last time la!! >.< not like i can just ask her out or smth.. but with her ard here seems like better for me and moni which both of us seems lazy to contact each other.. lols.. and another thing is.. poor sy!! =x though she's sad but she's not saying it.. =) i <3 her courage and endurance. =x

cried over cam's matter, over sis's matter and myself.. =S did know y i cried but i just did.. ain't good.. =x

2009-08-31T23:37:00.002+08:00

SERIOUSLY SPEAKING!!! too many things had bottled and i need to spill it out!!! ROAR!!!

1) QUARrEL WITH CAM for like twice in a row this month!!! omg!!! y can't she just understand or y can't i just be less friend with fren la!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.. care abt them end up i got madness and angriness and even high blood pressure la!! bloody hell..

2) met a zai nan and fking hell!! think gonna give up soon la!!

2009-04-07T16:57:00.002+08:00

ALRITE I KNOW I DID NOT UPDATE AT ALL..

but anyway.. LONG STORY..

firstly is that monkey and sis has nth to do with each other so YEAH!! GOOD!! ^^ and i'm still going well on both sides.. so i guess i gained a fren out of this.. but yea.. JY MONKEY!! dun depressed~ u're going on with life well enough..

then my god sis have a boyfriend from the tanglin police station.. some NS guy there.. but he's really clever.. and really nice.. but kinda weird when he's with hui.. o.O and as usual i'm the odd one out again.. =_=|| alrite nvm that..

school kinda startin in like a week or 2 time, and seriously speaking.. i'm not ready for it.. =x it's kinda like i'm year 4, quite sad to say that, but at least those "enemy" not around~ just that i DO HOPE THAT THOSE OLD FACI THAT TAUGHT ME B4 DO NOT COMES BACK =x they'll sure ask me abt it and yea.. the whole class might even discriminate me... F***

but i guess i deserved it.. =x

the pass 2 mth i met 2 guys.. 1 guy from maple 1 from some where.. lol.. the maple guy kinda really likes maple private server and was quite hard to talk to him.. =x but he sounds good.. lol~! and the other guy quite GAY!! =x and yong heng from my school initially was workking at the same shift at starhub same age as me, tall and nice, loves music like me, quits the SH job.. =x kinda gonna miss talking and going home at the same cab with him.. =x aww gosh.. but b4 he left he said that his frens is in my class in the coming semester.. and so.. should i be happy? or wad?? =x

GREAT~ doens't sounds good at all.. =x
but at least my dad got me a day job at his fren shop.. all abt film, photography and photo printing.. =)) quite excited abt it but kinda the other auntie and uncle dun really wanna teach me stuffs.. =xx sad... and i do not know wad's the pay rate like.. =_=|| my dad onli said they're not gonna pay me less.. -.- which i feel like asking is how much..

LOL!!

yesterday, i earned 30 bucks from selling hamster set.. LOL!!! but still not enough.. =_=
any one wants hamster and the cages and set? BUY FROM ME PLS!!! xD

2009-03-03T20:44:00.002+08:00

This song came up again.. Fahrenheit; 默默..

Its goes like this..

這是一個沒有答案的問題
我感覺我變了OH~誰讓我變了
因為這是一個沒有答案的問題
就被你解開了就那麼解開了

你走過了在這個迷人苦痛的對白
你甚至不讓我知道你對我有多好
慢慢地這份愛悄悄地住下來
深深的在心裡沒人看得出來
安靜的但卻一直都在數你默默的愛

慢慢地這份愛已經變成依賴
漸漸地笑容裡卻讓我充滿期待
不用說我就能夠明白OH你默默的愛

and i find it really really is wad my sis and i is feeling?? and the truth is she actually also know wad i gonna sae and she know wad isit.. LOL!! therefore now is break time for her.. ^^ good news.. and i think i wronged her for not really understanding the situation?! omg.. I'M REALLY SORRY!!

but it's good that we talk it out?? =) and happy tears are rolling not sad one.. ^^

I LOVE THE AIR THAT I"M HAVING NOW~~ ^^

and thanks irene.. =) yesterday when i was at the brink of scolding ppl.. i talked to u and lol~~ ur espressions~~ LOL!! too cute too resist le.. just accept my thank you =)

and YES!! I"M AND TROUBLE FREE once again.. and as usual.. =_= cus i dun angry for long LOL!!..

2009-03-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

listening to 飛輪海 - 默默... and the more i listen to it.. i find it sad but yet sweet.. and kinda the tune suits my mood now..

i'm rather...

-confused
-scared
-wishful
-sad

he said;
" Do it asap before another guy comes into the picture again.."
" From now till Sunday sure got alot of things happen le.."
" No choice.."
" just tell her.. from last nite after k think until today.. thats why decide to tell her asap.. because lidat she not going to be happy de.. even though she claims to be.."

is he right??
i feeling quite frustrated.. and really want to scold her !! but like that i feel that i am being very emotional.. and being too nosy.. i seriously dunno how..
but guess i will do wad is best for her... and waste my time.. =x..

but i guess i'll get over it very fast.. real fast.. and i need to prepare for school.. even though there's still 1 month 2 weeks time left.. but too me i have no time to loose ba.. =)

oh well.. be good winnie.. ^^ 老天爷会保佑你的。。

TO hui jie jie:

This pressure u are having.. is actually not a negative pressure..
there are 2 guys that care for u.. and i know u know it inside out..
but i know.. after u stay at a place long enough, other guys will definitely just slowly walk into ur picture of life.. and to me as a viewer they are distraction..

this YY seem very interested to get to know you.. but i hate his characteristic
he trying to wayang his way to get him notice u de..and even though u said that u have a kor kor to help u spy him but u will never know if ur kor i playing a not too.. life are very unpredictable..

i just want you to know that.. who are the ones are always there for you.. not trying to say anything bad about YY and i know u having fun tricking him to think that u are her gf but do u know that this will bring more harm to u.. more troubles.. and u never know wad he can do...

you should be blessed.. that 2 persons are trying their best to be the one for you.. and then i want you to know.. we are not getting any younger le.. as from what i can see.. u are indecisive on who u want to be with even when u are with a guy and u claim to be a 24 hr gf good for them and stuffs.. but sometime u are controlling them instead and not caring and loving them.. like a dog marking ur territory.. take me and UR piggy when i talk to him onli u think that we have smth going on..

i want you to frankly tell me... do you always get disrupted in your relationship when suddenly another guy enters the picture??!!

and also don't u get it? its because someone suddenly enter ur life.. someone suddenly that keeps talking to you.. then THINGS become more complicated?.. esp ur LIFE!!

Love,
Winnie Mei
________________

even though the above letter to my jie part is HJ's work.. but half is mine of wadever i want to sae.. and i believe she won't be reading this ba..

2009-03-02T21:23:00.005+08:00

okay i'll blog extra.. =.=

cos got pics long owned too.. lol~ all the below happen during CNY period when we go visit our pri teacher.. ^^

2009-03-01T11:39:00.001+08:00

i saw this on facebook~ lol..
____________________________

Let others know a little more about yourself, re-post this as your name followed by "ology"

THEREFORE THIS POST IS CALLED:

~WINNIEOLOGY~

***********FOOD-OLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?
Thousand island and that italian thingy

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
LOL~ i couldn't count that!

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
Hard Boiled Egg.. lol~

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
CHEESEE~, pineapple, HAMMY~, tomato sauce, green pepper, hotdog? xD

What do you like to put on your toast?
melted cheese, butter and sugar erm.. some times HAM too~

**********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many television sets are in your house?
1 working 1 spoilt lol~

What color of cell phone do you have?
PINK =P

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Teeth? o.o

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
1 BIG lugguage and a side bag packed with jacket, food, camera, sunglasses, drinks, psp, money, tissue, sun block..

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
No

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
YES? so i know when i can plan all the things i want to do etc.. =D

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
I LOVE MY NAME WINNIE~ xD

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Yes! I would if it's Tabasco sauce haha

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
1 =x i wan more..

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
EH??

Last person you talked to?
SY, HJ, god sis..

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
WINTER!! especially when it's SNOWING~ <3

Holiday?
Taiwan, Korea and Japan!! maybe thailand too~ SHOPPING~

Day of the week?
WED <3

Month?
DEC =P

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?
YES~ Ms Irene Lee, Ms Monica Tay, Ms Chin Sze Yun

Mood?
o.o BORED.

What are you listening to?
不能說的愛你; Honey And Clover 蜂蜜幸運草 OST; 許書豪

Watching?
The computer screen and side seeing my phone..

Worrying about?
My god sis.. HJ driving, my life.. =x

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
My hamster house.. lol~

What's the last movie you saw?
Kungfu Cook.. forget the correct name lol~ new movie.. =P

Do you smile often?
YES!! =D i love to smile..

QUESTIONS

1)Do you always answer your phone?
Yes when i can hear them ring~ xP

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
CAMELIA!!! =.=

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
GREY~ they're cool xP

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
wad's sonic??

5) Do you own a digital camera?
Yes.. ms pinky~

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
yes..

7) Favorite Christmas song?
Last christmas esp sung by DBSK <3

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
now too early to think of one.. lol~

9) Can you do push ups?
yes less than 5 lol~

10) Can you do a chin up?
NO WAY!

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Both!

12) Do you have any saved texts?
yupp

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
Nope

14) Do you have an accent?
YES i think?? some times britian, sometime hokkien some time singaporean lol!

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
MARLEY AND ME the ending song.. =(

16) Plans tonight?
EH... have dinner?? lol~

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Yes DEFINITELY esp now.. =x

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week
1. MILO
2. CLinque TONER AND MOISTURIZER.. =x
3. ZARA velet jacket.. nice~~ <3

19) Have you ever been given roses?
Yup.. =.=

20) Current worry?
should i go bathe and meet god sis up?? o.O gonna be odd one.. zzz

21) Current hate right now?
my god sis.. -.- aww gwad.. =x

22) Met someone who changed your life?
Haven yet ba.. lol~

23) How did you bring in the New Year!
Clean and mop my SMELLY room XD

24) What song represents you?
None! lol~ cus i'm unique and random .. xP

25) Name three people who might complete this?
IRENE, SONG ZHI and whoever reading this.. HEE..

26) What were you doing at 12 AM last night
waiting for cab at company to go home to sleep lol~

27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
Shit! I'm super late for SCHOOL/ EXCERCISE!! lol

2009-02-26T12:33:00.002+08:00

oh well.. problematic day~ =x

my god sis like becoming to be hopeless to life.. =(
she's ignoring ppl.. =x and that asshole stupid pig/monkey is a little depressed cause he's one of the ignored victim.. shall i go visit her later?? and also have lunch there since his daddy cooking it.. aww man.. =x wad's wrong with ppl nowadays?? is life that stress as it seems?? can't we just look at it in another way?? =x

i think i'm so wrong abt life..

cam meeting me later for movie.. can't call through sz PHONE!! if not can drag her along.. =) and i think i'm going to be late if i am going to like go and visit my god sis then meet cam.. =(

I'M ALWAYS LATE~!!

i guess i'm just lazy.. i just dun feel like bothering.. grr.. hate myself like this.. some one slap me ask me wake up can?? decide on something!

=_=

might be watching mystery of some button.. looks interesting.. =)) but i dunno cam want anot sia.. i'll try persuade her?? =x and i need to work extra!!! xD to get $$$ cus i just spend 53 on Clinique Toner (damn good), 85 on Clinique moisturizer (can still improve?), 30 on Zara velvet jacket damn nice.. and i'm wearing size L =) , and i think i'm going to spend more stuff... oh and i need to pay for bill.. $54 for this month.. =( and there goes my 1 mth pay... =x

I NEED TO WORK MORE!!! =D

2009-02-25T17:11:00.003+08:00

yeap long time since i blog.. but anyway..

I HAVE BEEN SLACKING ROTTING AND MELTING ON MY ROOM CHAIR!!!!

bloody hell~ i hate this =((

and even badder news..
i'm going back school on april mid.. worst news ever.. and taking 4 modules.. onli 2 modules with confident that i can score if i have no social conflicts, then 1 i dunno wad is that module and another 1 is the module i onli went for 6 classes... O.o

damn.. =x but as wad my daddy said (even though he dunno abt this news) finish it and graduate and it'll be all trouble free.. ^^ then camelia also said.. nv la.. just finish 1 sem not as though u are going to stay for another year.. then i said to myself.. mean time i can work more at starhub? earn some cash while having school? and i have another year to think abt what i want in live??

and for this particular reason i actually gave up the NTU/MOE; "Be a Teacher" thing.. =x

be a teacher is a dream since K2? from my memory la.. =x and now it seems..... SMALL!!!
quite sad.. and depressing.. thats y i've rotted since the start of holidays.. went slimming but no motivation at all.. slimed onli another 1 kg.. -.- went to work not motivated too.. even though this guy call yong heng the guy that came in teh company with me one.. still is one of the reason y i'm still working.. AND IT"S NOT THAT I LIKE HIM.. =_=

i just dun wan to PS him.. as after all we are the onli 2 that worked that shift in this RP batch that went over to work.. =) he's a nice guy though.. same age as me.. but i guess he has his aim?? lol~ not interested..
=p

After CNY, i went to have my fringe cut as it's poking into my eyes.. and there's a new hair dresser down the street and it's cheap.. 6 bucks so thinking okay i'll just go have a try and GUESSED WAD~~~!!!!!!!!!!

BLOODY HELL!!!! MY FRINGE ARE NOW SO GAY AND HIDEOUS THAT IT SHALL BE KEPT PINNED TILL IT'S LONG AND TRIMMED BY MYSELF.. GRR!!
=_= but this incident quite long le?? so yar..

lastly.. i kinda starting to miss the days i had in pri school, sec school and starting to feel regretful for not being hardworking.. even i think now.. my hamsters also hate me...

i am like no better than an animal now.. oh gawd!

pls lao tian ye/guan yin ma~ help me through or throw me into something so i can be more.. stood up??

I FEEL LIKE A PILE OF MUD NOW!!!

but i'm NOT sad.. =)
*o.o contridicting*

2009-02-16T10:22:00.001+08:00

A very owned post.. =x
SORRIE!!! >.<

1. How does the world see me?
下雨天 – 南拳妈妈 (o.O)

2. Will i have a happy life?
安静了 – S.H.E
如今我还在原地。。( got so bad ma?!)

3. What do my friends really think of me?
带我走 - 杨丞琳 ( =_=|| someone bring me away pls.. )

4. Do ppl secretly lust after me?
情人 – S.H.E; 2006移动城堡演唱会 (of cos ppl does.. cus I am de 情人xD)

5. How can you be happy?
爱的城堡 - 卓文萱 (yea man~~ someone build me a castle with love.. <33)

6. What shud i do with my life?
庆祝 -杨丞琳 (*opens party* everybody come move it move it~~ xD)

7. Why must life be so full of pain?
月光手札 – S.H.E (wad’s this suppose to mean?? The moon fault??)

8. Will i ever have children?
冷战 -杨丞琳 (erm…)

9. Will i die happy?
不潮不用花錢 - JJ Lin 林俊傑 (yea man~~ let’s dance to the beat)

10. What’s a good advice for me?
只要你快乐 -汪佩蓉 ( asking me to let them be happy?? =x how abt me?? )

11. What is happiness?
FM S.H.E 台歌 - S.H.E
my dear friend 吃饱了没睡饱了没
如果太累对烦恼打个哈欠
不管现在什么时间
都要记得把下弦月挂在你嘴边
九点十一任何天气任何地点
耳朵放尖调整好心的天线
准备收听快乐分贝
让我们永远陪在你身边
烦恼忘了开心的听我们爱的歌
笑着唱着 fm s.h.e 给你快乐

12. What’s my fav fetish?
直覺 -賴雅妍 ( my sixth sense? xD)

13. What’s ur love life like?
Give Me Love - 鄭元暢 & 彭于晏 & 伊藤千晃; Honey And Clover 蜂蜜幸運草 OST
Give Me Love （夢醒以前）　Give Me Love （用力實現）　Give Me Love
Give Me Love

You're my baby girl? That's right　遇見你有多幸運　Come on

在五十億人裡面　我多麼幸運能和你面對面
誰決定我們之間　存在著一種不平凡的關聯

14. What’s ur life motto?
不在场 - S.H.E (EH!!?)
阳光透过了纱窗空气微尘飞扬
暑假空了一半散落照片几张
回忆被你占满但你不在场

15. What do your parents think of you?
衝動 – Tanya (well sometime I am kinda like that.. lol)

16. what’s my fav hobby?
妹妹要快樂 - 曹格 (...)

17. What does ur best friend really think of you?
愛上這世界 - 周渝民 ( erm.. me loving the world?? Ofc I do!! =D)

18. What’s the worst thing about you?
七仔 (國語) – S.H.E (ALIEN ME?? O.o)

19. Describe your mind.
仙草蜜 – BY2 (I’M NOT THINKING OF THAT!! LOL~)

20. How will you die?
眼泪笑了 – 刘力杨 (good??!! Bad??!! =_=)

21. How does your crush feel about you?
Missing You - 周渝民 (aww… I MISS u badly too~~ )
深夜的一分鐘　漫長得像一世紀
又期待我掉進　想念你的陷阱裡
困住的舊回憶　像重播的老電影
那時候的你　還是愛著我的你
和你還是朋友　還能與你談談心
卻有些不可以　變成我們的默契
用最遠的靠近　送你轉換的心情
雲淡風輕　過去的已結局

22. How’s ur wedding gonna be like?
幸福合作社 - 范曉萱 (sweet?? o.O)
我有種感覺呼吸回頭你就在身旁
左轉右拐上天下海你走在我前方
我相信緣分但你說巧合其實稀鬆平常
只要能陪你就算荒唐我願意闖他一闖

23. What about ur honeymoon?
奈斯男孩 -曹格 (eh??~!!)

24. Describe the last day of your life.
We've Only Just Begun - Joanna Wang 王若琳 (okay… so my last day has just begun?~! )

25. Why does life suck?
Don’t Say GoodBye -柯有綸 (look at lyrics ba... I feel like crying~ Tissue Pls ~)
看著你哭的時候特別奇怪
想給的安慰總是說不出來
為何這愛總是拼湊不起來
現在的你為何笑的那麼愉快
因為你　我可以永遠在這等待
因為你　我不會再悲哀

26. Why does life rule?
哭了 - 楊宗緯 ( =_=|| )

27. What will u be famous for?
祝我生日快乐 – 温岚 (so pathetic? I will be famous for wishing myself happy birthday?? =/)

28. What’s the craziest thing you’ll ever do?
我可以抱你吗 -张惠妹 (eh?? Lol~)

29. Will u achieve your goals?
我不会唱歌 - 星光帮-爱☆星光精选[昨天今天明天] （what has it got to do with I dunno how to sing~ and I know how to sing okay!! =x）

30. What will ur future job be like?
为你而活 - 神木与瞳 (bloody hell~ live for hu sia?? O.O)

31. And your party life?
New York State of Mind - Joanna Wang 王若琳 (that’s NOT BAD~ xD)

32. Overall, will u be happy?
出航吧! 幸福快艇 (一起遨遊演奏版) (HAPPY HAPPY~~ ^^V)

33. Or will u just cope with it?
預感 - Nicky Lee 李玖哲 (lol~~)

2009-02-16T09:55:00.002+08:00

i hate it when A becomes B's follower.. zzz make u like a weakling la~!!!! arg..

but i can't tell u the truth and i left a draft in my phone.. and i dun understand y.. zzz..
you said:" i need to go to sleep cus xiao zhu ask me sleep".

zzzzz... -.-
then when u really need sleep u dun sleep.. U VERY GOOD!!! i dun wanna care u nor her le!!
and that fked up B is such a FLIRTING/调情 robot, EXPERT LA!! if u haven said that u wanted to stay single i would not have stop u.. u cna go ahead be in relation ship with A la!!! just next time dun ask me out cus i seriously find u really a bitch!! make ur self damn cheap.. and u are rite for once.. ever since u told me abt ur past with the ex-es u had during the missing 2 years i really now starting to find u damn CHEAP!! no wonder ur dad wans to marry u off.. bloody fucker.!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

and it's damn pointless to sae it here!! and i think i roughly know y i say it here and not into ur face.. cus i dunno whether to treat u as my GOOD FREN MA!!! zzzz...

cam really gets my scolding often.. o.O sorry cam.. =x but for ur own good.. :D
i think i also gets scolded often.. =x

2008-12-10T23:10:00.001+08:00

LOL!!! wad's with that face!!

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2008-11-29T16:30:00.002+08:00

WooF WO0f~~

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I AM USING MY NEW COM NOW~~ and it's super super duper uber ultra COOL~~ hahahahaa.. it's light, nice in color.. keyboard nice to type..and everything of it is SUPER cool~~ hahaha.. ^^ i'm just too excited i think.. HEE.. but i need to recollect my emoticons, web pages, errr.. files.. photos.. games.. LOL.. and i'm freaking going to be late for work.. O.o

anyway taking a cab down.. HEE.. ^^ $$ FLIES~~ 15 bucks.. =/ anyway.. anything later then sae.. haha.. mind in a blank now.. my mind all filled with my new com.. hahaha..

so..~~

CYA~~!! ^^

*IRENE I WAS DROOLING AT THE PHOTOS BUT NOT ON MY LAPTOP!! hahaha.. i was at my bro's desk top~~!! hehe..

I FEEL LUCKY!!

2008-11-27T18:42:00.002+08:00

THANKS IRENE WIFEY~~ <33

i wan cry liao seriously.. cus i'm happy to see irene sae she loves me.. hahaha... and at least this week that's the sentence she said to me and made me feel LOVED.. i think i'm just being kicked aside by frens this week.. and though i tried calling cam to talk.. she kinda gets super excited over her new clothes.. =.='' and she's busy.. =/ with tests and project and presentation.. the rest.. i dunno wan to call anot sia.. haiz.. not that i dun wan call sz.. but she can't spend much time on talking on phone cus she using same as me, prepaid phone.. and she has her projects which from last update from her is that she has 6-8 freaky projects to complete.. O.O then the rest like moni and sy... kinda can't give good advise?? =/ or rather to sae they dun have patience to hear me out?? =/

THEREFORE conclusion: blogging is my ranting place number 2.. ^^

who's number 1??!!

hehe... IRENE LEE.. o.O
but she has outing lol.. and she's showing me pretty pictures!!! and made me SMILE... O.o

aww man.. y i say until like nth in singapore made me smile.. =/ i think like wad HJ said abt me.. i talk too much.. =/ ppl detest talkative ppl?? HAIZ~~ kinda sae till like he scold me correctly.. =.= zzzz..

ANYWAY~!~!~

I WOKE UP AT 9 AM CUS I NEVER ON MY ALARM~~!! =.= AND DIDN'T GO SCHOOL AGAIN!!!
[someone drag winnie to school pls..]
and i went to IT FAIR~~ to look for a BRAND NEW LAPTOP~~~<33 and i bought LG some 300T.. lol.. they didn have 300U.. =/ better performance.. but no matter wad.. it's freaking NICE~~ and i paid 1000 bucks deposit but have tell my dad abt it.. =/ but i dropped hints.. HEHEH... XD really getting it back on SATURDAY!!.. and it's my DAY!! WOOTS~~

and..

DEAREST IRENE:
There are too many memorable things we did and said.. lol.. if we were to really write it down, i guess it's gonna be a blogger post liao.. hahaha.. ^^ and i want to go to AUSSIE!!! so let me see if i can get 2 weeks OFF from work during june/july.. lol.. and i think i am continuing job i had now.. =/ STARHUB MAXONLINE TECHNICAL HELPDESK PERSONNEL/OPERATOR?! to me it's interesting at least and GOOD PAY?!? xD

And hor i NEED SINGING SESSIONS~~ can u be my teacher too?? ^^ lol..

2008-11-25T23:41:00.002+08:00

我要和你一起遨游，飄過宇宙的盡頭~~
要用隕石梳頭，流星漱口，把你當枕頭~~
我要和你一起遨游，穿梭時光机暴走~~
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sometimes i think that i kinda sucks at communicating.. and sometimes i think i am really very bad.. sometimes i think i really fail to be a person and sometime i really really think i should just die.. being good to people telling them more things they find u irritating.. being good to people trying to cheer them up they find u irritating.. being good to people and say them a little ask them to cherish wad they have, they find u irritating.. and after all the irritation they'll start scolding u and ask u shut up..

AND FINE I'LL JUST SHUT THE HELL OUT OF ME..
AND FAK OFF..
AND SHIT MYSELF..
AND GET FAKED UP ON MYSELF..

so ya.. conclusion... WINNIE IS A FAKING IRRITATING ASSHOLE THAT DISTURBS U AND DUN UNDERSTAND U AND TRIES TO MAKE U ANGRY..
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2008-11-24T22:38:00.002+08:00

i GOT MY DEAREST S.H.E MY STAMPS~~ AND IT'S FREAKING GORGEOUS!!! ~~

I'M SO LOVING IT!!! <33

IT'S AS PRETTY/NICE/GORGEOUS/FANTASTIC/AMAZING/SHOCKING/SMOOTH/SHINY/MANY MANY...

I DUNNO HOW DESCRIBE IT LE!!!

but kinda not worth my money too.. =/ maybe it's 40 then worth.. but it's 60 bucks.. =/

2008-11-24T13:11:00.000+08:00

apparently winnie LAM is bored and shall so dome updating and some irene blog reading.. and i came up with a PUN!!!

.:A day of Irene's blog reading, keeps de boredness away:.

xD

nice anot??!! and very true cus irene blog is interesting!! very indeed..^^

and from her blog i saw that i am TAGGED!!~~ so yea.. let do THIS!!
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O.O long man~
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1. The person who tagged you is?
IRENE LEE AI LING

2. Your relationship with him/her?
BEST friends ^^ (hope she category me that too.. =/)

3. Your 5 impressions of her.
Friendly, Pretty, Sweet, Lovable and Trust-able.. ^^

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.
treated me to kbox, food and had to deal with my frens during chrismas.. =X
which was suppose to me doing those stuff.. =/

5. The most memorable thing she had said to you?
LOL.. HK FEET STORY!!! ahahhahahaa.. and made my sad sad day too super HAPPY!!
thx gal!~~^^

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?
lol.. sounds wrong but i think will be super BLESSED.. and i not les ar..

7. If she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
>.< do i have to sae this?? =P

8. If they become your enemy, you will?
I don’t think we will ever become enemies ba..

9. (Repeat Question).
CUS SHE'S JUST SO LOVABLE!! ^^
*can i pinch ur face?? xD

10. What is it you want to tell for her now?
Sorry can’t spend your christmas/CNY with you this year but I might have the chance to go over during JULY and celebrate ur early birthday !! ^^

11. Your overall impression of her is?
Loving Fren..<33

12. How do you think people around you will feel around you?
eh.. lame? fat? bubbly!! random!! lol.. thick face me.. =/

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
I love singing (too) and I'm glad i'm always happy.. =D

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?
Too blunt at times.. and joke to much.. some ppl hate that.. =\

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
me, myself and body figure of either one S.H.E lol..<33

16. For people that care and likes you, say something to them.
Everyone must take care and love yourself more! no more SADNESS!!! xD

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.
1) Irene (lol, do a double post!! ^^)
2) ReBina~~ <33
3) Hong jie (if he reads my blog)
4) god sis( if she has a blog.. o.O)
5) eleen ^^
6) [i dun seems to have alot frens =X]
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8)
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10) Anyone else happen to be reading…

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
Haha, I don’t know? cus it's empty? lol

19. Is no.9 a male or female? -
Male (virtual image.. xD)

20. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
lol.. yes in virtual world!!

21. What is no.2 studying about?
BUSINESS APPLICATION!! TOUGH!!

22. What was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
Just!! lol.. and we're sms now.. o.O

J: In camp at 9pm lo.. dad fetch.. having cup mee now.. =)

W: ur dad so good!! lol.. i had fried rice at last.. wan some?? =D

23. What kind of music band does no. 3 like?
S.H.E!! and he adores HEBE!! o.O

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
yea.. 2 younger sister..^^

25. Will you woo no. 3?
lol.. but he in love with my god sis.. o.O and i'm a noob to him.. T_T

26. How about 7?
Then it will be a very complicated woo-ing story…lol..

27. Is no. 4 single?
nah~~ her bf is call LIANG now.. lol..

28. What is the surname of no. 5?
Chan!!

29. What is a hobby of no. 10? -
Dunno?

31. Where is no. 2 studying at?
NanYang Poly~~

32. Talk about something for no. 1.
lol.. she's from 612 xing qiu!! and i'm huo xin ren!! xD

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8?
LOL.. wad u think?!?!

34. Where does no. 9 live?
some where in my dream~~ ^^

35. What colour does no. 4 like?
blue.. o.O

36. Are no. 1 and 5 best friends?
Nope.. and they dunno each other’s existence LOL~~!!

37. Does no. 1 have any pets?
YES!! LEO~~

38. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
DEFINITELY NO!! cus i created him/her..
so i'm the PRINCESS OF SEXINESS~~ =P

39. What is no. 10 doing now?
LOL.. watching porn~! hahahahhahahahaha...
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something to add on.. mr monkey aka hong jie is in loved with his legs.. HAHAHAHAHAA...

can i shave my leg too??~~ <33

2008-11-19T15:13:00.000+08:00

NO SCHOOL FOR WINNIE~~ ^^

onli wed.. zzz.. and it's raining super heavily today.. =/
maple is down for NEW PATCH.. ^^ and i'm so BORED~!!
so camwhore for winnie~~ ^^

and wad to announce ar?? *stretch head*

erm.. i can do split? o.O i really can.. ^^ and erm.. i haven been going school =/ and i love my COUSINS.. and madelyn cousin is at TAIWAN.. T_T.. i wan go overseas, i changing laptop but no SPONSORS.. T_T i can collect my S.H.E, my Stamps and album.. ^^ and.. I DON'T KNOW!!

aww man.. my life is dead.. SO PATHETIC!! T_T
someone come spice up my life pls..~~ anyone!!

and i think blogger hates me..
cus it seems like it does not allow me to upload pics la.. =.=

*poof*

2008-11-17T18:14:00.001+08:00

hmm.. decided to blog out wadever i feel TODAY~~
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hope those ppl involve dun see it.. =S
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yesterday i went out with monkey and hui(god sis), went to food fair (expo) and it sucks to core.. =/ went to suntec for a little shopping.. but did see anything nice.. =/but alot sale is ard.. =)

which also mean~~

CHRISTMAS is coming~~^^ so is my Birthday.. =/

back to topic.. monkey saes he wanted to give up but.. feeling still linger~~ and i really regret to allow him come along.. =/ as this outing is hui suggested.. wanted to K, but she is sick.. so change of plan but she push planning to me... and she suggested to ask monkey along.. =/ argh.. main point is.. YES we went out.. monkey feeling not good too.. =/ he is sick.. and can see that hui keep finding excuse to hook his hands.. hold his hands, =.=, touch his body, TICKLE him =.=, my god.. can die.. and i really pity monkey =/ next time he need to wear shield out if going out with her.. anyway.. afterfood fair, we plan to go suntec and we need to take a train.. and guess wad.. i got on the train but they were being left behind~~ ALONE.. gosh..
and cus they are alone and hui said to monkey during food fair that," you owe me a massage!!"

monkey gave her a masssage when i was not around.. =.= not only that.. hui confiscated his ring again.. GOSH@!!! it's like the 6th ring le CAN!!! and can u stop taking his ring.. =.= u are making him so into u la.. zzzz.. thats not the point and also making U, HUI, STEPPING ON 2 boats LIAO~~ grrr..

suan le.. =/ no point getting angry.. at suntec nth much happen i think.. we ate pasta mania for dinner.. then hui suddenly felt giddy again.. and we finished our drinks and went home.. while waiting for bus, monkey stomach ached.. i think is gastric is up again.. =/ asked him to sit in bus but he insisted to stand.. and hui was sleeping on my shoulder.. =/ and can see that monkey was super not rite at all.. =S when we reach their hse area, hui and me send monkey home, he was speaking abnormally and dragging his feet and was sweating cold sweat.. >.<

POOR monkey..

then my turn to send hui home but she said no one at home wanted to have a talk.. so yea.. we went to her hse void deck and talk talk talk.. kinda felt that.. she can no need so troubled over the 2 guys she having now.. she can just give monkey up since she's afraid that she's going to get pregnant.. O.o

opps.. said something i shouldn't but.. HACK CARE~~

U.U

i'm so mixed feeling now.. =/

i really hope hui can just leave monkey alone.. =/ he so pitiful.. and in camp he is not going well too.. =/

haiz..
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i'm in love with a song.. ~~ ^^

每次我總一個人走
交叉路口自己生活
這次你卻說帶我走
某個角落就你和我

像土壤抓緊花的迷惑
像天空纏綿雨的洶湧
在你的身後計算的步伐
每個背影每個場景
都有發過的夢

帶我走到遙遠的以後
帶走我一個人自轉的寂寞
帶我走就算我的愛你的自由都將成為泡沫
我不怕帶我走

每次我總獨自遠走
抱著緘默不皺眉頭
這次你卻說一起走
彼此溫柔從此以後

像土壤抓緊花的迷惑
像天空纏綿雨的洶湧
在你的身後計算的步伐
每個背影每個場景
都有發過的夢

帶我走到遙遠的以後
帶走我一個人自轉的寂寞
帶我走就算我的愛你的自由都將成為泡沫
我不怕帶我走

白馬溜過漆黑盡頭
潮汐襲來浪花轉動
凝在海岸結成了墨
薔薇朝向草原氣球
郵差傳來一地彩虹
刻在心中拍打著脈搏

帶我走到遙遠的以後
帶走我一個人自轉的寂寞
帶我走就算我的愛你的自由都將成為泡沫
我不怕帶我走
帶我走就算我的愛你的自由都將成為泡沫
帶我走

2008-11-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

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WINNIE NEEDS MOTIVATION~

T_T

feeling so bad now.. kinda at the brim of breakdown.. but dun feel like crying.. WEIRD..
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BLOODY BLOGGER..

>.<

cannot upload pics.. and my feeling is so terrible now.. =/

2008-11-11T16:48:00.000+08:00

GAHHH~~~

TEST SUCKS LIKE HELL AND EVERYTHING I DID WAS BY GUESSING.. EVEN WITH reference =.=

OM TIAN~~

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nvm that idiotic test.. let it pass.. =.= and i missed 5 lessons for that mainframe so.. ya..

i deserved it... T_T

anyway.. had like 2 BIG dinner last fri and sat =.= and grew fat like 2 KG straight after that and i CAN FEEL THE EXPANSION ON MY TUMMY LA~~ =.= need more excercise..

but i think i gain out of it.. not only on WEIGHT =.= but socially also =))
was able to catch up with cousinsssss~~ niece and nephew.. omg i'm old they calling us cousins as AUNTIE, UNCLE O.O.. i feel old sia.. U.U

And the older cousin those 17 and above went drinking at some nice pub~~ ^^ and that philipino fren of tuan kor SANG SUPER NICE.. ANGELIC singing can... =.= and he said he is having not a very good voice that day~~ O.O imagine when he had a good throat angel plus GODNESS~~ i feel like going to him.. can be my god pa? ^^ so he can teach me angelic singing~~ hahaha..

I WAN TO SING~~ ^^
lalala~~

and i NEED TO GO HOME.. -.- all alone in a classroom .. SCARY~~

tata~~ ^^

love ya~~

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when the time comes i will know wad to do.. WHERE IS THE LOVE~~ ^^

2008-10-18T00:04:00.000+08:00

LOL.. haven updated for 1 MTH plus.. omg..

*clean clean*

there it looks nice and clean~~ <33

anyway.. happened like too many things.. and when i want to update i always dun have the chance.. zzz... either no connection or my school got like loads of ppl which leave me no personal time to update la!! haiz.. sad..

but anyway.. things for that jie(hj) and my jie(sis) changed.. wondering if she's really gonna let him go.. but that HJ damn.. !@#$@#$@#$ dumb la.. keep saying that he like her alot.. -.-''
think he got cancer liao cannot save le.. zzz.. *smacks him on the ass*

but just one conclusion.. he decide on his own.. -.-

i also know a new fren call.. LEEN, dunno her full name yet.. LOL.. knew her through HJ, she's i presume should be a pretty pretty lady.. xD and maybe going k box with her!! xD

*lookin forward look..* [forgot the word for it..=.=]

she sure is damn cute.. lol.. from the way shetalk with jie.. so FUNNI!! hahahaha.. can't help laughing.. and i guess she's pretty otoo.. cus she got alot nan ren jio.. man.. a little jealous but think dun wan better.. alot trouble if too many guys.. lol..

=S dunno wad to write le!! sian..
argh,..

sian sian.. sae abt me?? think also nth to sae sia.. zz anyway i have been skipping school like.... no body's business.. my GOD!! HOW CAN I PASS MY DIP LA!!! T_T

sure need retain liao!!! T_T

*depressed*

some time..

2008-09-08T18:34:00.001+08:00

when i gets jealous.. i start to envy them and hope that it will happen to me some day.. but i guess it's hard..

well i'm always jealous over my god-sis..

not only because she always has lot of guys care for her but also because there's a guy i knew did so many sweet stuffs to her but yet because of a wrong sentence he said she's avoiding him!! i really 为他打抱不平.. not only that.. though he is my senior in choir but he is really really a good guy... he puts in all heart and effort to a girl and no other.. he even made a post all abt them their encounter though not really complete.. but sweet sweet.. xD
pls click here*

anyway.. put that aside cos i also cannot choose for her..
irene also have things bad going on yesterday.. dunno is good or bad la.. but she has both.. *envies*
she's well back to single but she seems ok.. not hurt..
and she actually knew someone online and that one is cute.. xD a little suai too.. but the pic very dark la.. hahaha..

i guess like daily life.. fate comes and goes.. mine i guess is gone.. cos walked the wrong path.. but soon i believe there will be one for me.. for me to be smiling everyday because of that, for me to be able to talk everyday, for me to hope for tmr instead of yesterday.. many many..

winnie so emo today.. after hearing stories.. esp from a guys.. starting to pity him.. =S

guys can be so fragile sometime.. =S
<3

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*life's always contradicts*

2008-09-02T16:00:00.000+08:00

ok back to blogging~~

so when was the last time i blog??
*still wondering*

anyway many things happened in the month of AUG
1) happy birthday to:
- IRENE LEE (wifey)
- CAMELIA CHOW (猪朋狗友) *lol*
-SHU HUI (god-sis)
- pamela
- many many

however only celebrated for jie, cos i was free then?? lol.. irene is in aussie, cam was freaking busy with her lame idiotic project and BF.. lol then some other frens nv really talk that much liao.. sad.. =(

2) went to HX's chalet alone... o.O
was a nice stay over i can sae but no detailss shall be said here.. =P

3) worked at starhub for my 2 weeks holi..
kinda tedious but i got alot of offs.. lol.. so it's ok.. anyway some team leader is so freakin fierce..
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and i got scolded once.. T_T

4) knew my FYP 2 allocation
topic: study the security something system/ programme [ this topic sucks like HELL!!]
winnie is so not a researcher neither am i theorical nor book worm.. winnie wants things that allow me to play with.. gahh...

5) FYP1 results is not up to standard and shall do a rework..
F**K

6) lost some weight
since the start of june till now, weight lost = 15kg

7) went shopping spree and spent like 300 + 400bucks this month!!!
wad did i spent on?? GOSH!!
4 tee
2 knee-length pants
1 shorts ($43, T_T)
1 camera ($438, Sony T70)
1 dress [which never shall i wear]
1 cardigan

8) waiting for my PAY
zzzz..

9) know new frens??
seems like those new frens are my god-sis's pursuer.. lol..

10) PICTURES!!
all taken with my new cam.. had more photos but all gone ever since the attack of some stupid virus which i need to reformat my com.. T_T

*heartpain*

wanted to get that for some beach party.. but it cost 37 bucks.. T_T

2008-09-02T15:53:00.001+08:00

oh ya some thing to add on~~

i also went k-box thrice.. lol..
2 times with sis, 1 time with my madelyn cousiee~~
first time to k-box buffet too.. food was nice.. love their tapanyaki fish.. yum.. *drools*
they also had shark fin soup haha..

IRENE!! WE SHOULD GO THERE AND FINISH UP ALL THEIR FOOD!! LOL..

anyway, was also sick.. and yet still went on singing and my singing sucks that day.. some more first time singing with my cousin.. crap.. face all gone.. reputation all gone.. T_T but her singing was rather nice.. just lack of feeling i can sae.. and can fight with IReNE.. lol..

i want to have a pool session SOON!!!
after having HX as my shi fu, but onli had 1 lesson from him, my pool skills seems to be a little better.. just that my angeling a little wrong and my eyes always have stamp on.. lol
seems that i somewhat will miss the point that i should hit the ball on.. I NEED MORE PRACTICE..

someone pls jio me out to play pool pls!!!

hahha... xD

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*sometimes it's just u who is imagining things though u've got some things that should not be happening at all.. stop missing it la winnie lam!!!*

2008-07-29T13:32:00.000+08:00

~he's just another flirt~

ok back to real bloggging!!.. had been going out ever since my grandma went in hospital, grandma came out of hospital, knew a new fren from my god sis.. etc etc.. lol..

had been owning people PICTS too!! om gosh.. lol.. upload now?? nah.. later.. classmates ard me will shy... lol

good news to me?! too.. i am selected to be in the starhub technical helpdesk thingy.. solving people's maxonline by phone.. so if miss me on SAT can call 1633 lol.. but rmb to go to maxonline technical helpdesk and look for winnie.. haha.. xD but just dun get me in trouble by talking nonsense lol.. cos all calls are recorded!! haha.. xD

went movie with a guy plus my god sis.. watched Batman.. kinda nice.. but some part are DISGUSTING!! until i need to cuddle into my sis's warmth.. lol.. had nightmare that night.. =(
overall it's like spiderman trying to sae that "with great power, comes with great responsibility".. a little sad, alot excitements, and alot ugly burned faces.. lol.. onli got 1 but the joker is UGLY too.. overall i give 3.5 stars out of 5..

wanted to watch hellboy instead cos hero saves the beauty, but that HONG XIANG watched it with his frens.. T_T i guess i shall wait till then.. =(

wad do i have to blog??
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i guess nothing left.. xD

i miss my wifey..
i miss my camelia..
i miss my SZ..
i miss my frens..

~till then winnie shall not love~

2008-07-25T12:36:00.001+08:00

i think i'm not.. lol.. after a night of thinnking... i'm not in love.. guaranteed NOT.. xD

2008-07-24T12:12:00.000+08:00

I think i'm in love? oh well.. hope so..

puzzled..

2008-07-23T14:24:00.000+08:00

What is to love and what is love? what can love power do? what do love do? when meeting someone interesting does it means..?

some people came and asked me that.. i was total puzzled.. looking at my god sis's relationship with her BF, looking at irene and ken.. looking at the B**** and a guy in my class.. i seriously dun understand what love is..

maybe i may had liked someone b4 but i suppose that is just like.. like from a show i had just watched, they said, when u like a person u will feel very happy to have his/her company, but when it's infront of the person that u love you will start to feel that there's something in the chest that u can't bring it out.. And when the person u like look at u, u will smile right from your heart.. when if it's the person u love, u will actually have you heart starting to pound faster and start wondering and think what that person is thinking and will start to think for the opposite.. Not only that, using body temperature can also tell if it's like or love.. when u look at the person u like temperature will be at most 38.5^oC but when u are facing someone u love temperature will shoot up to a very high fever of 41^oC

does it really implies in real life? or it's just a show? hmmm... ~~

It's a test week + HAPPENING!!

2008-07-15T12:00:00.000+08:00

lol.. yea.. from the title i think u guys can know that yes i am having a test week cos i have UT (understanding test) 3 times in a week when i onli have to come school for 4 days.. and i missed one that is on monday.. =( hope i dun score bad for the overall grades.. =( and on wednesday which is suppose to be my break for the week.. i have my FYP presentation!!! gosh!! scary!! but i'm not as worried as i was when i was doing my PP haha...

any way it's happening.. lol

i also get to meet up with almost all mu cousins... and all are still as cute as ever.. haha... but didn really get the chance to meet back the older cousins though.. =S

picture time.. hope they allow me to post them.. =(

wee~~ they allow~!!

lol.. there's still more to go.. but.. next time. =D

and also part time jobs coming in looking for me.. haha.. tmr's the interview scary.. and FYP 1 is all OVER!!

winnie's free now.. ~~ xD

Am I or They're just...

2008-07-10T19:29:00.000+08:00

another week passed.. my grandma in hospital and i get to meet and get contacts from my cousin.. COOL!!

also meeting back and aunt and i found out that.. i'm quite tall actually.. lol.. when going to have lunch with all my 5 aunt, i was the tallest.. haha.. and a head taller then them.. lol.. except one though.. haha.. i have a younger female cousin, 2 yrs younger, shorter too.. 2 boys cousin, younger by 6++ years, shorter, which is obvious.. lol.. and i older cousins i still didn really get to see the yet.. but hopefully they're shorter too wahhaha!!!

winnie's evil!! =X but so long i am one of the tallest.. thats good!!! heheheehhehe.. xD

anyway.. wish sz HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! though i didn get to really celebrate with her.. but we should have a payback celebration soon... probably after the projects.. zzz.. which sucks totallY!! esp when u start to work with some bloody bitch that has mouth of a loud hailer, eyes of some evil baby, body of some stick, not bamboo cos bamboo is high class and she is NOT HIGH CLASS ENOUGH.. , she also loves to talk.. nono.. is FLIRT with the guys in class.. no wonder ppl keep calling her a bitch.. and i truly understands this!! BITCH!! argh...

*breath in*
*breath out*
*breath in*
*breath out*

winnie's alll calm now.. ~~~

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Let's hope tmr a better day.. =]

master wugui: " Yesterday is a History, Tomorrow a Mystery, Today is a Gift; that's y it's call PRESENT."

This seems that the present that i got from my god is kinda rotten.. but i can't ask for much.. =X

Dominance

2008-07-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

Irene is taking over Winnie's blog!
RAWR?

MUAHAHA...ha.ha..ha (like not convincing enough) =\
Okay. I just spent like my sweat and effort (around half an hour bah and it's currently winter in Perth?!) on this so no spamming allowed (maybe you can spit on your own computer screen).
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I'm off, byebye!
http://reeny.net (haha still have time to advertise my own blog :P)

2008-07-01T14:32:00.001+08:00

I am so super PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!

WARNING!! THE POST BELOW WILL CAUSE EAR TO BLEED PLEASE DO NOT READ IF ARE innocent, cute and do not want to see/hear any evil...

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WHY ARE THERE PEOPLE WHO LIKES TO CLAIM CREDIT LIKE AS THOUGH I AM TRANSPARENT.. FUCK.. WHY DO SOME PEOPLE LIKE TO BOSS AROUND WHEN THE CODES IS NOT THEIRS AND THEY ARE NOT DOING ANYTHING THOUGH ONE OF THEM IS TEH FUCKING LEADER POST. . SOME PEOPLE THINKS THAT THERE IS NO IMPORTANCE IN DOING WORK LIKE COMPILING AND REPORT ESPECIALLY IN A TEAM... WHY IS THERE SOME FUCK WHO THINKS THAT THEY HAVE A BOYFRIEND, GOOD IN ENGLISH AND GOOD FIGURE [ WHERE ONE IS FAT AND ONE IS THIN LIKE SOME FUCKING SATAY STICK] CAN COME AND BULLY ME AND STEP OVER MY HEAD.. I MAKE SURE U GUYS FAIL FOR FYP AND REDO LIKE U NV WANTED TOO.. U FUCKER ASSHOLE UNDERESTIMATED ME AND NV DO RESEARCH ON ME ISIT!!! I AM A KNOWN COMPLAIN QUEEN DURING SCHOOL DAYS OK!! OR SAY IT MORE AWWFUL, I AM A TEACHER PET... UNDERSTOOD!!! U GUYS WATCH OUT WITH WHAT I HAD DONE.. U FUCKERS...

IF THERE IS A NEED I WILL DO ALL THE FUCKING WEB PAGES MYSELF THEN I SEE WHAT U CAN SAE.. U TWO ARE SOME FUCKING ASSHOLE KKNBCCB DAUGHTER OF A BASTARD AND BITCHES ASSHOLE WHORE IN SOME FUCKING GAYLANG STREET AND STOP STOP FLIRTING AND ANNOUNCING ARD LIKE A LOUD FUCKING HAILER IN CLASS LA.. U FUCKING KNNBCCB BITCHES..

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Names are not mentioned.. want to know more pls ask me..

some #$@%$^#@$^@$#^#@$%

above "evils" are not said out by my mouth only my hands.. so no worry going out with me..

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2008-06-30T19:39:00.000+08:00

Coming an end in the FYP project is so super sucky and it's super f***ed up with some team mates.. where some one did not even do the CODING that they were suppose to do and said that i CHANGED THEIR FUCKING CODES FOR NTH.. wahh.. i'm cursing!!!! gahhhhhhhhh...

*ROAR*

Anyway.. it's a good weather and i saw a Heart SHAPED CLOUD!! =D but when i took the pic of it..

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the wind blew it away.. and it beacame half hearted..

i dunno u guys can see the heart anot.. but the weather is real good here.. haha.. xD breezy.. making me more energetic to think or my codes.. xD

i'm becoming more like an IT Geek.. =X

gone kbox last week with dearest SZ was a great singing session.. and i found out that.. when we sing duet.. i should be the girl and sz should be the guy.. cos onli this way our voices could be merged!! and we sound great!! xD

Going K-ing again this sat with my depressed god sis.. =(

She just broken up with her BF whom was supposedly to be my going-to-be-god-brother-in-law.. lol.. this term is long.. To me he's quite a kind and caring bro.. but i guess it's my god sis temper that blew him away.. =x and she told me that everyone get deceived by his looks.. =.= in which he is not that good looking too.. shorter then me.. *i can see the plateau of his hair..* lol..

my god sis is just too childish(i find) and she does not really know how to 体贴 people too.. =( so kinda bad for a relationship where the guy always tries to give in.. guys also normally have lesser patience too.. some more that guy always so sad.. cos he like becomes my god sis and younger god sis's coolie.. =X

so wasted i think.. but oh well it's her business anyway.. i can't really interfere =(

but overall.. winnie is still happy and a little stress.. =x

*roar*
should i go to aussie during my holidays (sem 2) ??
*ROAR*

2008-06-20T15:08:00.000+08:00

I know i stopped blogging.. but i guess i will continue since IRENE ask once for it..

xD